I totally understand <hugs>
With one of my jobs I was to be able to go from one department to another, one of them was clicky and I hated it! Prior to that I had worked in a department that was like a big happy family until we got a new boss who did not like me!! So I moved to another department. (they had many departments were in different places around the London and greater London as well as around the country). I was fortunate in that job being able to move around easily.
I then left to have children for a few years, then went back to work in a school, that was great for a while, until I got a new boss, who then bullied me for 14 years!!
My daughter is now working at the same place that I worked, and she started off with a great boss who really supported her in everything she did, and liked her a lot. She retired last year and now she has a young boss who really does not know the job at all! She hates it now as he gives her far to much work, he does not know what he is doing and half of the things she is given is un-necessary and could be given to the assistants rather than her as she is a SEN Maths Teacher. Schools often promote teachers as leaders of departments, heads and deputy heads, and whilst some maybe great teachers, but do not make great leaders or heads of departments. I just wish that people who get these leadership jobs, had proven skills in the role!
hubby and I have retired now, the first year was great we did lots of fun things, before covid hit us and we have been stuck at home for over a year.....more time to do my art!! lol
Sorry to waffle on!